1.23.2016

Silly poem thing ... Siamese dreams


You make me feel sad
My face turn red
And my chest I know someday my brain will explode
I hate that I know 
That you know
The more you freeze me out 
I still will be your home
9 years falling through the rabbit hole scream now

Hazy eyes another day

Angry Eyes say that I love you 
In These hard times that we face
The way we feel about each other
True intentions get misplaced

We will make it through the day
Guess it is life that is to blame
Bad connections and short circuits 
Leave the air in disarray 

Our souls are bounded to the circuit
Are paths are bonded to the past

Don't say goodbye 
We are complete it's only half of us strangers meet

A force magnetic by nature
Nothing ever will be able to interfere with that fact

Turned around. the fields push apart
With no power everything turns to ash
I know you're everything and anything that powers me
Flipping back positive and negative 
This house won't collapse

Electricity takes the path of least resistence
Give the lightening two paths to ground

One cable down right to the ground

With two paths it will take them both 
To the ground with no damage

No acute angles 90 degrees or more obtuse 

Connected rod bent is out of code
Straighten em out fix it 

Ground to frozen solid to drill ground leads 




  soul 

Chuck

My song-- 
******
Am D F Em
********
Am         D              F          Em
    In the after-silence    fighting leaves behind

Am           D              F
    I try to think it over

       Em            Am
But my mind's gone blind

           D               F           Em
I lost the right to argue    somewhere down the line
*******
Gm           Cm
   I had to tell

They told me to
G#       Gm   
   Go to Hell
    Bb     Em
And here I am
D
----------------------------------------------
Am         D             F              Em
    In the gaping hole      Home truths tear in a home
Am           D               F
    Married to this hurting
            Em
I know it's all my fault

Gm         Cm
   Who can tell
                   G#
Looks like we have
              Gm     Bb
   A house to sell
---------------------------------------------
Gm               Cm
Now he'll never know
     Bb           F
What anyone could tell him
Gm               Cm
Now he'll never know
     Bb         F
What anyone can see
Gm            Cm
Now he won't believe me
     Bb      F
Ever again, completely
--
Am D F Em X2

Am         D             F            Em
  So now I hang around      Feet back on the ground

Gm              Cm
   I just can't stand
G#              Gm     Bb
   I just can't stand

Gm               Cm
Now he'll never know
     Bb           F
What anyone could tell him
Gm               Cm
Now he'll never know
     Bb         F
What anyone can see
Gm            Cm
Now he won't believe me
     Bb      F
Ever again, completely
Gm               Cm
Now he'll never know
   Bb
Or ever dream
    F        Gm              
How much he means to me

Cm Bb F

Gm     Cm  Bb  F
  Ever

F#m


By kayleigh
U Should have listened to my song should've had some questions for me.
Now I have to say so long 
and you don't have nothing really.

And I'm happy for your company
 I'm happy for your company
 I haven't had a friend in years 
I don't think Ill have one with tears 
for anything I've lost and all I've wanted but haven't gotten it is such a free-for-all and I am never wanting to reach for anything you want but to have something have it all along
 and to show u as the days  roll-on 

I hope you can feel happy
Without being something more than you could be 
thinking I have time to waste on this isn't Moore is in less than anything I've had before so excuse me if I leave 
excuse me excuse me if I stay 
I have complicated needs and I friend think it's fair to dismiss the grey

You never call me on the telephone
 I don't know if you're alive
You never call me on the telephone 
you text and text your life away
 you never mean nothing you say to me will be talking and you Driftway words come out meaningless wish that I just didn't exist that would mean something was real how must not be here if this is how I feel if I say something and it's more than another I think that I should feel something other than this

It's getting creepy and here come into the light little girl if you think you can handle my world I don't think all amazing runner at first after all you'll need to have a thirst step into the light my dear there is an anything to worry about. If you don't like what you see you can go back to the day when you knew everything was or you just didn't care there you were now you're here 
I can't go faster to become something faster than light there must be someone faster than someone better than you and everything you've ever tried so why does Light have to be the one to when there's never a winner there's just a top for my own little tiny perspective of someone better who beat the clock but here you got like me going to St. Thomas be someone better to be the guy if there's not then that's not fair I guess that's why Light is the one to survive the darkness I don't think you would like to see the darker side of little me I won't be threatening that happens and I don't feel a thing I could blow you away with the sound of my voice cracking as I tried to explain something I needed you to understand now feeling the pain feeling ashamed again why do I have to be this way words I come up with you would never say you don't think it's such a deal having someone like me to repeal this is madness. So much useless information. From the start you received my heart if you do ask me not to leave madness

-m@

10.08.2015

I just got a Xbox Live card code for free! :D http://xboxlive.freegiftcode.com

9.20.2015

Set List

Talking in code

Standard Tuning

C:   X32010
Am7: X02010
F:   133210
G:   355430

Intro (basically):

  (C)                  (Am7)        
E---------------------------------- 
B----1-----------3-1-0h1----------- 
G------0----0------------0----0---- 
D-------0h2---------------0h2------ 
A--3----------3-3-----0---------0-0 
E---------------------------------- 
                                    
       (C)                (Am7)     
---------------------------------|  
-3/5-3-0h1------------3-1-0h1----|  
-----------0----0-------------0--|  
------------0h2------------------|  
--------3---------3-3------0-----|  
---------------------------------|  
                                    



E-----------------------|
B------------3/5-3-0h1--|
G------0----------------|
D--0h2------------------|
A--------0-0------------|
E-----------------------|

For the verses just strum the chords and keep picking the bass line hammer-on's for the 
and D strings but leave out the B string part that's in the intro. During the chorus let 
high-e ring open for the F, G, and C chords.


[Intro]

I gotta [C] go,
And your talking in [Am7] code,
Saying I know where you've [C] been,
And I know where you [Am7] go.

But I've been [F] tir-[G]-ed from the [C] minute I woke,
I stopped [F]listen-[G]-ing the [C] moment you spoke,
And said [F] I'm [G] long [C] gone,
Yeah, [F] I'm [G] long [C] gone.

[Intro]

And I'm sleeping [C] alone,
In a house I don't [Am7] own,
Cause if you're touring your [C] mind,
You'll get lost [Am7] everytime...

And you'll sing me [F] sad [G] songs to [C] keep me awake,

In that [F] bed [G] room [C] we hid away,
Baby, [F] I'm [G] long [C] gone,
Yeah, [F] I'm [G] long [C] gone...

[Intro]

And your [F] voice [G] cracks [C] like a piano,
You keep [F]mov-[G]-ing, [C]but where are you going,
Baby, [F] we're [G] long [C] gone,
Yeah, [F] we're [G] long [C] gone...
G  Cmaj7  Em  Em7   C
Eb|-3----3----0----0----0-|
Bb|-0----0----0----0----1-|
Gb|-0----0----0----0----0-|
Db|-0----2----2----2----2-|
Ab|-2----3----2----0----3-|
Eb|-3----x----0----x----x-|


Intro

G    Cmaj7    G    Cmaj7
G    Camj7    Em   Em7

Verse

                G   Cmaj7
We sent out the SOS call
         G           Cmaj7
It was a quater past four 
       G
In the morning
         Cmaj7           Em         
When the storm broke our second     
        Em7                         
 anchor line.                       

G              Cmaj7
Four months at sea.
     G              Cmaj7
Four months of calm seas
           G              Cmaj7
Only to be pounded in the shallows
           Em             Em7
Off of the tip of Montauk Point.


G              Cmaj7
They call them rogues.
            G        Cmaj7
They travel fast and alone,
    G            Cmaj7 
One hundred foot faces
              Em         Em7
Of God's good ocean gone wrong
               G         Cmaj7
What they call love is a risk,
               G          Cmaj7
Cause you will always get hit
       G
Out of nowhere 
        Cmaj7        Em         Em7
By some wave and end up on your own.


Chorus

C               G                   
The hole in the hull defied the     
 crews attempts                     

Em         Em7
To bail us out.
C               G
And flooded the engines and radio
Em              Em7
And half buried bow.


Verse

     G           Cmaj7
Your tongue is a rudder.
   G                Cmaj7
It steers the whole ship.
           G               Cmaj7
Sends your words past your lips
              Em                    
Or keeps them safe behind your      
 Em7                                
 teeth.                             

        G                Cmaj7
But the wrong words will strand you.
         G                Cmaj7
Come off course while you sleep.
           G           Cmaj7
Sweep your boat out to sea
                Em          Em7
Or dashed it to bits on the reef.


G          Cmaj7
The vessel groans
          G             Cmaj7
The ocean pressures its frame.
        G              Cmaj7
Off the port I see the lighthouse
            Em            Em7
Through the sleet and the rain.
           G            Cmaj7
And I wish for one more day 
           G              Cmaj7
To give my love and repay debts.
        G                 Cmaj7
But the morning finds our bodies
          Em           Em7
Washed up thirty miles west.


Chorus

C                 G
They say that the captain 
                    Em
Stays fast with the ship 
                  Em7
Through still and storm.
C                  G
But this ain't the Dakota.
                 Em
And the water is cold.
                           Em7
We won't have to fight for long.



Ending

            G
This is the end.

This story's old

But it goes on and on 
         Cmaj7
Until we disappear.

Calm me and let me taste
 
The salt that you breathed
               G
While you were underneath.

I am the one who haunts your dreams
                            Cmaj7
Of mountains sunk below the sea.

I spoke the words but never
                                    
Gave a thought to what they all     
       Em                           
 could mean.                        


I know that this is what you want.
                           Em7
A funeral keeps both of us apart.

You know that you are not alone.
                          G
Need you like water in my lungs.


G  Cmaj7  Em  Em7   C
Eb|-3----3----0----0----0-|
Bb|-0----0----0----0----1-|
Gb|-0----0----0----0----0-|
Db|-0----2----2----2----2-|
Ab|-2----3----2----0----3-|
Eb|-3----x----0----x----x-|


Intro

G    Cmaj7    G    Cmaj7
G    Camj7    Em   Em7

Verse

                G   Cmaj7
We sent out the SOS call
         G           Cmaj7
It was a quater past four 
       G
In the morning
         Cmaj7           Em         
When the storm broke our second     
        Em7                         
 anchor line.                       

G              Cmaj7
Four months at sea.
     G              Cmaj7
Four months of calm seas
           G              Cmaj7
Only to be pounded in the shallows
           Em             Em7
Off of the tip of Montauk Point.


G              Cmaj7
They call them rogues.
            G        Cmaj7
They travel fast and alone,
    G            Cmaj7 
One hundred foot faces
              Em         Em7
Of God's good ocean gone wrong
               G         Cmaj7
What they call love is a risk,
               G          Cmaj7
Cause you will always get hit
       G
Out of nowhere 
        Cmaj7        Em         Em7
By some wave and end up on your own.


Chorus

C               G                   
The hole in the hull defied the     
 crews attempts                     

Em         Em7
To bail us out.
C               G
And flooded the engines and radio
Em              Em7
And half buried bow.


Verse

     G           Cmaj7
Your tongue is a rudder.
   G                Cmaj7
It steers the whole ship.
           G               Cmaj7
Sends your words past your lips
              Em                    
Or keeps them safe behind your      
 Em7                                
 teeth.                             

        G                Cmaj7
But the wrong words will strand you.
         G                Cmaj7
Come off course while you sleep.
           G           Cmaj7
Sweep your boat out to sea
                Em          Em7
Or dashed it to bits on the reef.


G          Cmaj7
The vessel groans
          G             Cmaj7
The ocean pressures its frame.
        G              Cmaj7
Off the port I see the lighthouse
            Em            Em7
Through the sleet and the rain.
           G            Cmaj7
And I wish for one more day 
           G              Cmaj7
To give my love and repay debts.
        G                 Cmaj7
But the morning finds our bodies
          Em           Em7
Washed up thirty miles west.


Chorus

C                 G
They say that the captain 
                    Em
Stays fast with the ship 
                  Em7
Through still and storm.
C                  G
But this ain't the Dakota.
                 Em
And the water is cold.
                           Em7
We won't have to fight for long.



Ending

            G
This is the end.

This story's old

But it goes on and on 
         Cmaj7
Until we disappear.

Calm me and let me taste
 
The salt that you breathed
               G
While you were underneath.

I am the one who haunts your dreams
                            Cmaj7
Of mountains sunk below the sea.

I spoke the words but never
                                    
Gave a thought to what they all     
       Em                           
 could mean.                        


I know that this is what you want.
                           Em7
A funeral keeps both of us apart.

You know that you are not alone.
                          G
Need you like water in my lungs.

Chakary Jackson

Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and drag me with all of my regrets

This is not a small cut that scabs, dries, and flakes, and heals

And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a carbon copy based life form
The knife slewing the thin flesh fades out 
Comsmedicated by the gash that won't heal

Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my perforation' ?
Would you be my 1000 fucks' ? 
And make a mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill under, and over my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black shattered heart
Fucking fight! Don't Accept that there is no truth. I'm fighting and I need you. 
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife

8.27.2015

Stuff not now just found it written

 I see a vision for a work in apartment to my vision I ask a total and utter commitment because you have enough to deal with with school. I see you struggle with every simple thing I think that you should have this I can do this without year or in mind .

 I it's got to go I I can't take me more seriously the words that come out are the truth it's the pace between i'm giving it all


Ignore me tomorrow
 Don't forget about the night. What I don't say too much. Doesn't go away when I break. What you see before. Is what we fucking you. I painted the picture hundred percent clear

 How is time always moving how? Do we fill them the movements when? Will we be free to think again. When? Will they stop looking through me
 I can see it clearly. Even so far away. I can see it clearly.

 It can't be able to hurt so bad. When I need it I need it. More and more each day. It's not supposed to hurt this bad. I need it I need it I need you.

 A life of servitude is a life to be dealt with to be decoded

 A decagon you say. Quotation it's got to mean something quotation that was all in your head just come back in a minute or pretend that you get it. Forever is a theory that drives the week. Do their end. Anyways the days you won't make your mind it when it boils down to second and the rescue rescue late.
 Say that you know it, make it all right or leave your what's wrong here

 Replace the mess up there with all our thoughts and say you'll give here remember you're not there. It's just a figment you cats held through the fog that Cass you're over your life cast out your light. Your fall is formidable and there was never a jury I wouldn't stop being selfish and through throwaway through  stopping selfish and threw away your plea and then you can mean something to me

 It's this dimly lit and that masquerade which wouldn't reveal the detriment still hesitant of a heart that refuses to break 

8.04.2015

I don't know if I will ever be happy again. Terms and use agreement have changed. They had too. You pressed okay. No one reads the fine print. I thought we agreed together. Blindly.


7.27.2015

Sometimes I stand up at the college steeple
and see all the people on the ground
And they travel through like wind up toys put in motion and move crash and move in no direction.
 I feel like I need to scream to tell them it's all foolish 
there life is one track 
Can't they see they see its pointless?
Suddenly knees tumble under me my head is spinning with adversity  

Oh I come to find again,
 it is not them but me
the way i lose my own self identity. Clinging to books I read, scribbling bad poetry... Like art could save a wretch like me 
With some ideal ideology
no one could hope to achieve
 I was never real, 
just a sketch of me
everything I've made 
is trite and cheap 

the meaning of man no where to be found
Looking for signs all around 
With my ear against the ground
Quantitatively lost I yearn for faith
For a soul I could not sell
I will be free we. Will be lifted 
And all will be beautiful eternity of understanding 
Love will be clear and it will be easy


To hard for a human mind to guess because making wild guesses is stupid
One day I'll learn to live 
a simple life and won't feel trapped
 I'll arrive at solutions so profound
 it will all be easy from that day out 
The fog of Boredom will be lifted and you will meet 

All the people that you never seen
And winter is leaving you will be healing the veins that now can feel the seasons change
Calming your handsome head
To do the things that led to be
Making me a higher being


I won't condone
When you have a moan 

The time it passes without rhyme or reason
And then clocks waving incessantly 
 Thanks to us They might need therapy
Waving and spinning anything 
to get us back to reality
Alone in the passing days
Surrounding us
And still they were not seen

Another year goes by 
It is common knowledge: media lies
Only looking out for the elite
but really they were there so that they can eat 
Are they really just as one dimensional as they seem
It reminds me of this dream
Where everyone was a game show host

And want to be crazy and when they look in the mirror
They can see that there are just a common then
It could've been you it could've been me but it was them

So who is the enemy
Who 
is the ones to beat

You and me
And quite possibly the weatherman
May one day be friends
Oh but as sites it will be
It isn't boring 
Night and future you would have seen
Being today you and me being today me


6.27.2015

I've been living with no Reminence of the former self of me.
Im Lost in the black I've no clue where I am
I've got my arms stretched out in front
and I'm calling your name just as loud as I can
I stumble and fall
You're the switch on the wall In the dark of the Hall Im still fumbling for
Love I would search forever more
And I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
An awful lie for which i have been cast aside
I can offer only one reply. I knew not who I am!

Still I talk to the mirror to the people who appear.
 The conversations are always one-sided, filled with such nonsense and nothing is solved
 except I keep coming back  to this meaning that I lack
 I guess the conclusion has to be to live with it or just not live .
 And you speak of a fever that burns deep inside as you tell your mother how you wanted to die she kisses your fingers and says my darling but why when there's so much more and so much more.
There are places opening wide. You know there are days longer in the night and you'll be happy and the moment  you try. so please just try. so please just try. 

5.31.2015

If no time ever makes as much since as this past week has then..... That's where it gets fuzzy the journey is still on and always has been.... Clarity has come about it forms not to be totally expected and I'm left in the shadow of it trying everything to piece together all the things I've gained In knowledge about being a real friend.  Where is the misconnection... Well I got my tape so I'm prepared .... To not let this be about me and pretending I get it . I will get it I will know you I already thought I did enough there is more always more. Sober sleep eternal wake nonsense.... Thank you week and energy and all the decisions and the things I couldn't see I can now almost get a glimpse of. Progress . Love . One lov3. 

4.18.2015

even if I didn't know it,
I imagine if anything, it's even worse,
You could fall in love,
Start a life with someone else,
The more you desire him the more I exhale,
It's eating me away, it's rotting me,
It's driving me crazy, it's destroying me,
When I know you're getting laid,
Breath, breath, jealous, jealous

I'm jealous, making people shudder,
And even if I'm the one who breaks
I don't care I don't want to be replaced
I'm jealous, making my legs shudder,
I would like to crush myself on the highway,
But you don't care you're already far,
The worst is to be already too far, already too far

Do some dark thoughts sometimes
Suddenly cross your mind?
Me, I have some every night
Provided time erases them
Are you still thinking of me
As I'm still thinking of you?
Do you suffer as much as me?
If it's less I won't forgive you.

1.02.2015


I been lost for a while
my soul left wondering
listen close and you can hear us singing
the anthem of a dying king

the emptiness, is anyhting but bliss
Dante called it a comedy well i'm calling it Hell.

you got me thinkin bout the good days
a little whiskey and its all okay
a day dream i never want to end
take me back
bring me back there again.

             
Where did it go, theres a fire burning through my soul
           
where did it go, my god these days are long

i've been lost for a while
a soul left wondering
listen close and you can hear us sing
the anthem of a dying king

the emptiness, is anything but bliss
there is no patient hope in new snow

you remind me of the good days
a little whiskey and its all okay
a day dream i never want to end
take me back
bring me back here again.

you remind me of infinity
that sideways 8 always  been haunting me
go ahead now search my soul
i think we're good to go

you remind me of the good days
a little whiskey and its all okay
a day dream i never want to end
take me back
bring me back there again.

3.16.2014

Delerium: My ridiculous ramblings....of lyrics n such

Delerium: My ridiculous ramblings....of lyrics n such: I’ve always wanted / I’ve never gotten, something as beautiful as this Always imagined / thought I’d been living / always indulging in need...