Silly poem thing ... Siamese dreams

You make me feel sad

My face turn red

And my chest I know someday my brain will explode

I hate that I know 

That you know

The more you freeze me out 

I still will be your home

9 years falling through the rabbit hole scream now

Chuck

My song-- 

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Am D F Em

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Am         D              F          Em

    In the after-silence    fighting leaves behind

Am           D              F

    I try to think it over

       Em            Am

But my mind's gone blind

           D               F           Em

I lost the right to argue    somewhere down the line

*******

Gm           Cm

   I had to tell

They told me to

G#       Gm   

   Go to Hell

    Bb     Em

And here I am

D

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Am         D             F              Em

    In the gaping hole      Home truths tear in a home

Am           D               F

    Married to this hurting

            Em

I know it's all my fault

Gm         Cm

   Who can tell

                   G#

Looks like we have

              Gm     Bb

   A house to sell

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Gm               Cm

Now he'll never know

     Bb           F

What anyone could tell him

Gm               Cm

Now he'll never know

     Bb         F

What anyone can see

Gm            Cm

Now he won't believe me

     Bb      F

Ever again, completely

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Am D F Em X2

Am         D             F            Em

  So now I hang around      Feet back on the ground

Gm              Cm

   I just can't stand

G#              Gm     Bb

   I just can't stand

Gm               Cm

Now he'll never know

     Bb           F

What anyone could tell him

Gm               Cm

Now he'll never know

     Bb         F

What anyone can see

Gm            Cm

Now he won't believe me

     Bb      F

Ever again, completely

Gm               Cm

Now he'll never know

   Bb

Or ever dream

    F        Gm              

How much he means to me

Cm Bb F

Gm     Cm  Bb  F

  Ever

F#m

By kayleigh

i love the taste

don't wanna let it be
i like the way i look

when you crash into me
i grasp attention
and swerve my way through
tilll all are on the edge of their chair

i'm a mystery
if you think you know my think again
I love everything about how i make the muse
fall to my whims.

get out get in
no this isn't a game..
but regardless
i always win :)

So let this one burn
but you just wouldn't it die

underhanded shots
u didn't even mean to hurt me
but thats all you can do these days
a human a being

can't survive in climates like these


we all like to feel good
it would be a straight lie if i said that wasn't a driving factor in my life

you and me like to party and play the balancing act
but its not the same

i mean i hate to say this
i hate to be the one to let go

it wasn't anyone else
it wasn't the extra pressures
and the cards I put down

the 5 beautiful Queens

don't exist except
when one puts out their image

only existentialism

could that be my shtick

y be the normal

oh u love to say i'm just normal

and he's waiting for another tantrum
a reason to say f$@#$@ u

help me please i'm drowning
and the one i call lover

doesn't even try to save me .

please save me

a dying soul a burnt list torn and
vanished

from an uncaring populace

i can't ignore how empty
how final my conclusions are being

let the image stand
i don't care and you sure as hell don't have to take my hand

this time it hurts
i love you so bad

get me a beer i need to unwind
this noisy highway talking to a billboard
is not becoming you
as i briskly watch you lose the pieces of your mind

a trail of ideals smeared into a vortex of nothing

is what you realize has been the case all the time
don't look for fufillment in the image u;ve seen it
i know you didn't know they were lies
but let it happen again just 1 more 1 more time again
and you know i just can't handle it another time

so really has anything anyone really ever heard or felt me  or was the billboard right

addiction + ignorance = a person who lost their chance to fly
ya it said I was now just a statistic
of an individual who gets no live broadcasted birthday party on youtube
and no cake.

i thought i had my cake and i thought i ate it too but yaaa you know i finally get it

the cake was just another ideal billboard too.

I get it now. everyone else wins

it was never a joke but all just a game to see how fast failure could be stuck to my name a good luck wish encompassed by a delivery of disdain forget the rest .....it'll just be lame

The Mind Canvas: 99 Degrees

The Mind Canvas: 99 Degrees: Delirium Sets in consider it sin Thirty minutes time and Ill be swimming again Drivin with white knuckles Cigarette Smoke Cons...

The Mind Canvas: 99 Degrees

The Mind Canvas: 99 Degrees: Delirium Sets in consider it sin Thirty minutes time and Ill be swimming again Drivin with white knuckles Cigarette Smoke Cons...

here goes another one 1-2-1-2

always alone its never enough
why can't i be the only one
obviously i'm not enough
--
little girl of seven or eight
i don't like boys there not my want
and i never wanna taste the stuff they say that .....

already by eleven or twelve
i dont wanna play nice
ill just be the other lover
i know it'll all fail
 i'll be that other woman .....or ever trusted friend
more devious then....or wanting to be then i'lll ever be or ever have been

its not enough to be with you
assumed the dull role as the  live in guest
a servant of chance of something coming in
knowing ever word thats came out of his heart and out of that pen

ya maybe i didn't tell you enough how great you are
that the reason i chose you and continue to stay with you is you are the brightest f*ing star
in a solar system of nothings you attract the best and the stars who cant burn as bright
slowly faid into that moonlersss night
that ever dreaded abyss

and me you know i'm only fizzle
but you gathered me all up and kept me through some seemed hopeless nights
and ya i fall back in love with you even when i'm trying to see we're no good in full circle
well not really its just that i don't think  u could ever know and never will u pseudo-sun

its a bet and a ball maybe some jacks.....

i'm not gonna leave....cuz we both know. id never come back
with a flask some bars i bid you goodnight
you never listened to that stupid song i didn't write and ya just kno it is no big deal but dont lie to the birds just tell the demons how you feel about all my zilked ramblings and that annoying look i do all those reasons that you hate about you...i mean me its me not just a reflection of self when one brings up pushes down and then drowns the one that they love
i've never been one for exits so i'll turn out the light
sit in the space that is my muse, likeness, n make light
of all the things that i love and the futures soo bright and what the delirium brings to consume and change me to another and see another side

byebye