i love the taste

don't wanna let it be
i like the way i look

when you crash into me
i grasp attention
and swerve my way through
tilll all are on the edge of their chair

i'm a mystery
if you think you know my think again
I love everything about how i make the muse
fall to my whims.

get out get in
no this isn't a game..
but regardless
i always win :)

So let this one burn
but you just wouldn't it die

underhanded shots
u didn't even mean to hurt me
but thats all you can do these days
a human a being

can't survive in climates like these


we all like to feel good
it would be a straight lie if i said that wasn't a driving factor in my life

you and me like to party and play the balancing act
but its not the same

i mean i hate to say this
i hate to be the one to let go

it wasn't anyone else
it wasn't the extra pressures
and the cards I put down

the 5 beautiful Queens

don't exist except
when one puts out their image

only existentialism

could that be my shtick

y be the normal

oh u love to say i'm just normal

and he's waiting for another tantrum
a reason to say f$@#$@ u

help me please i'm drowning
and the one i call lover

doesn't even try to save me .

please save me

a dying soul a burnt list torn and
vanished

from an uncaring populace

i can't ignore how empty
how final my conclusions are being

let the image stand
i don't care and you sure as hell don't have to take my hand

this time it hurts
i love you so bad

get me a beer i need to unwind
this noisy highway talking to a billboard
is not becoming you
as i briskly watch you lose the pieces of your mind

a trail of ideals smeared into a vortex of nothing

is what you realize has been the case all the time
don't look for fufillment in the image u;ve seen it
i know you didn't know they were lies
but let it happen again just 1 more 1 more time again
and you know i just can't handle it another time

so really has anything anyone really ever heard or felt me  or was the billboard right

addiction + ignorance = a person who lost their chance to fly
ya it said I was now just a statistic
of an individual who gets no live broadcasted birthday party on youtube
and no cake.

i thought i had my cake and i thought i ate it too but yaaa you know i finally get it

the cake was just another ideal billboard too.

I get it now. everyone else wins

it was never a joke but all just a game to see how fast failure could be stuck to my name a good luck wish encompassed by a delivery of disdain forget the rest .....it'll just be lame

The Mind Canvas: 99 Degrees

The Mind Canvas: 99 Degrees: Delirium Sets in consider it sin Thirty minutes time and Ill be swimming again Drivin with white knuckles Cigarette Smoke Cons...

The Mind Canvas: 99 Degrees

The Mind Canvas: 99 Degrees: Delirium Sets in consider it sin Thirty minutes time and Ill be swimming again Drivin with white knuckles Cigarette Smoke Cons...

here goes another one 1-2-1-2

always alone its never enough
why can't i be the only one
obviously i'm not enough
--
little girl of seven or eight
i don't like boys there not my want
and i never wanna taste the stuff they say that .....

already by eleven or twelve
i dont wanna play nice
ill just be the other lover
i know it'll all fail
 i'll be that other woman .....or ever trusted friend
more devious then....or wanting to be then i'lll ever be or ever have been

its not enough to be with you
assumed the dull role as the  live in guest
a servant of chance of something coming in
knowing ever word thats came out of his heart and out of that pen

ya maybe i didn't tell you enough how great you are
that the reason i chose you and continue to stay with you is you are the brightest f*ing star
in a solar system of nothings you attract the best and the stars who cant burn as bright
slowly faid into that moonlersss night
that ever dreaded abyss

and me you know i'm only fizzle
but you gathered me all up and kept me through some seemed hopeless nights
and ya i fall back in love with you even when i'm trying to see we're no good in full circle
well not really its just that i don't think  u could ever know and never will u pseudo-sun

its a bet and a ball maybe some jacks.....

i'm not gonna leave....cuz we both know. id never come back
with a flask some bars i bid you goodnight
you never listened to that stupid song i didn't write and ya just kno it is no big deal but dont lie to the birds just tell the demons how you feel about all my zilked ramblings and that annoying look i do all those reasons that you hate about you...i mean me its me not just a reflection of self when one brings up pushes down and then drowns the one that they love
i've never been one for exits so i'll turn out the light
sit in the space that is my muse, likeness, n make light
of all the things that i love and the futures soo bright and what the delirium brings to consume and change me to another and see another side

byebye